What you are about to read is extremely disturbing and the height of blasphemy and sacrilege, which is why it is only accessible through this link, which must be deliberately clicked to access.
Rachel did not include these details in the book, by design. She assumed that having surrounded her own story with several well-researched and documented accounts of satanic ritual abuse throughout ancient and recent Church history, that the reader would understand that’s what happened to her as well. The decision to leave out her particular details stemmed from the fact that she is a mother of small children, and she has to interact in the Catholic community—and it’s almost unthinkable to have these sacrilegious details out on the pages of a book for all to see or stumble across. This revelation is not easy, and your compassion, grace, and understanding is appreciated. There is no “right way” or rule book as to how to expose and explain one’s own participation in a Satanic Black Mass.
The only reason this horrible scene is being documented is because people of good will are confused, being led to believe that the ritual rape of Rachel Mastrogiacomo was simply a love affair with a priest gone bad. Nothing could be further from the truth. If anyone reads this description and still concludes (or spreads the lie) that this is just an affair between a priest and a woman who hunted priests, then I can only conclude that he or she has lost the faculty to reason or is a person of bad will. There are no other options.
One last note: Please consider the level of grooming and brainwashing required to get a faithful Catholic to participate in such an act, and please consider that satanists have long been able to twist and distort the psychology of their victims (whom they choose carefully based on weaknesses, wounds, innocent, and vulnerability), even to the point of believing they are doing something holy. We also cannot discount that spells (the Church believes in the efficacy of evil spells and witchcraft, to suspend a victim’s power of reason) and/or drugs (very common even in the secular accounts “fogging” a victim of rape) are or were employed. One thing that Rachel told me that really struck me as to how brainwashed she was: She went to confession, as was her frequent habit, maybe 72 hours after this satanic mass—and it never occurred to her to confess it. That is how thoroughly she believed she was doing something mystical and holy. To admit to such a fact is proof that she is telling the truth, because to admit to such things is an unthinkable cause of embarrassment and profound humiliation—no one makes that up. You can scoff, but you had better pray to God that you or even your own children never one day fall pray to a satanist and his wiles. Best to stay humble. Remember that Satan (and every angel and demon) is exponentially more intelligent than you or any human.

Here is what happened that night, when the final rehearsal for a Black Mass was performed.